Heal

I remember the first prayer I ever really prayed. I said “God I heard you can heal people, will you heal me?”

The word "heal" and "healing" means to make solid or whole. In the Bible it means the restoration of health, the making whole or well whether physically, mentally or spiritually.

“I heard you can heal people, will you heal me?” it has been three years since that prayer. What has happened since then? I have started to fully love myself, I have surrendered my life to something better that I could ever imagine here on earth. I have found deep joy in sorrow and trial.

I have learned how to say I’m sorry, admit I’m a sinner and receive the grace that is boundless each day. I have found hope in each day, because my hope is not of this world, but rather in the One who created it. I have learned to let go.

Yes, there are days when my hands cling to the story that is still being written, but each day little by little I let go.

I have never found more freedom than when I learned to unclench my fists and release my grip. I have discovered peace beyond the capacity of this world, I have seen heaven come to earth and been invited to join in on building it. I have wept, I have asked for forgiveness and I have learned the power in forgiving your enemies and those who have hurt you.

I have started to build and be part of real relationships that go past the surface, but rather invite all of someone else in and extend all of me to them. Not just the parts I like.

There is a story in the Bible about a man who was paralyzed. He had been for years. I relate to this man. I too was paralyzed and trapped in someone I was never called to be. When I asked Jesus to heal me, he said something along the lines of get up. Pick up your mat and walk. He said that to the paralyzed man, and what did he do? he Believed. He got up, and he began to walk. Many were amazed and some criticized him, and his only response was “The man who healed me told me, pick up your mat and walk.”

If you’ve never come to know the God of the universe and His heart for you I want to invite you now to ask Jesus to heal you. Ask him with a shaky voice or in total confidence. Ask him on your knees or under your breath. He will hear you, and He wants to heal you. I’m still in a journey. A journey of unlearning, undoing, and becoming. I will never arrive, and it has freed me even more to know that I will not arrive, but I will always grow. I will always progress, and one day I will see the harvest of my seed when I stand in front of my Father. Blameless because His son Jesus died for me and for you.